DO YOU KNOW…?
One of my biggest struggles over the past years has been how I see myself. I can see how parts of my past have made it very challenging to see myself as worthwhile, as beautiful.
It’s easy to let the day to day, and the stress of struggling relationships speak the loudest into our hearts.
You might have noticed lately that I’ve posted a lot more pictures of myself than ever before. That’s not because I want any praise or affirmation from you.
Instead, it’s because a shift is happening in my mind and heart.
I’ve taken some time to get more healthy physically, I’m out from under the frustrations of various types of struggles in my previous marriage, and I long to be present in my kids’ lives.
One of my dearest friends asked to see pictures of me when I was younger. How heartbreaking to say that those hardly exist – because of my low self-esteem, and because the person who should have been taking pictures didn’t think about it.
So as I’ve been growing this last year and especially these last 6 months or so, I’ve been noticing changes in myself- in how I look, and feel, and the fact that I feel more feminine again.
Yesterday I had a moment. I wanted to wear a new dress to church, so I got ready then walked by the mirror and got all teary-eyed. People have been telling me I’m beautiful, and that I’m valuable and worthwhile.
Yesterday, though? I saw it. I saw it for myself. And I stood there with tears in my eyes because I am beautiful.
I don’t need you to agree, I don’t need your affirmation; instead, I need you to believe the same about yourself. Find people in your life who will affirm you, who will speak truth to your heart, who will help you to see your worth.
Then? Then comes the hard part: BELIEVE THEM. Believe them with your whole heart.
It may take days, or weeks, maybe even months, but if you listen, if you believe them, then I promise you that one day soon, you’re going to SEE it, too.
You are BEAUTIFUL!